What's next for me?
I went back and forth for a while trying to decide what I was going to compete in. My days of curling are in the past (yes, it's sad but I have so many other things that are important in my life to look forward to), and I was looking for something new to compete in and spend my time doing. I am no stranger to the gym. For years I have always trained in a bodybuilding style split, focusing on building my physique and toning certain areas of my body. I love it, and I still do to this day, as I still incorporate bodybuilding workouts into my programming. I considered being a bikini competitor for honestly a very long time--probably the past year at least. There are so many smart and talented people in my gym that are competitive bodybuilders, so this is what I was used to seeing on almost a daily basis. But something always held me back from that. I have nothing but respect for the sport, and I love watching, following and supporting the people I know who compete, but it wasn't for me. If I spent an entire year contemplating doing it, did I really want to do it?
Anyways, flash forward a few months and I'm about 7 weeks out from my first powerlifting meet. Wait, what? A 5'3, 115 pound girl going into a powerlifting competition? Yes, please take me seriously. Honestly, up until this past year or so, I've always been so sure of things. I was in a great university program, I was a competitive athlete for nearly 15 years, I was living a good life in a city with my friends.. etc. Within a few months, at the end of 2016, my life took a 180 degree turn and I decided to switch career paths from Kinesiology into Nursing (which I officially start in the fall, yay!!) Anyways, my point is that I was always comfortable and never made quick decisions. Having said that, I rarely was able to make big decisions for myself. I stayed within my comfort zone because thats all I ever knew. It was up until I had a gut feeling about pursing my career in nursing that I began to change other aspects of my life as well. I took better care of myself, I was more open with myself about my feelings, I got out of a bad relationship and into a good one and I truly started doing things and making decisions for myself. Like I mentioned, I have always loved the gym and training and lifting heavy weight, so why not compete in something that I was already doing? (Because let's face it, I'm busy enough as it is). I played around with some programming, hit a few PR's and realized that I definitely had the potential to get strong af and within a month of debating, I signed up for my first meet.
The meet is on May 20th, in Scarborough Ontario, and given my super competitive background, I'm honestly not going in it to win. The amazing thing about powerlifting is that its mainly a sport where you compete against yourself. I want to go 9/9, hit (or at least attempt) a PR on all three of my lifts, and learn as much as I can with my first experience. 5 weeks into training and I have never been more confident in myself, my abilities and my strength both mentally and physically. I've never had this much passion for training, and it's an indescribable feeling setting goals and achieving them every week of this program. Powerlifting is a sport that requires constant positive reinforcement. If you doubt yourself even the slightest, you're going to miss the lift. If you walk into the gym like a badass and own it, you're going to make it. You can't afford to think about anything but the lift in front of you. The focus, drive and dedication that just the training alone requires for this sport has already influenced how I live other aspects of my life, from school all the way to my relationship. I get asked all the time why I like powerlifting and what the big deal is about simply lifting a weight up and putting it back down. I always say it's honestly just the moment of silence and the overwhelming satisfaction and pride when the weight stops moving after a successful lift. It's just you, the barbell and that moment. The moment that may only last a second, but to the lifter it's like a lifetime.